Should have gone for ebay instead

We received a parcel with some strange name on it. I think it’s not for us and of course curiosity got the best of CY, he opened the box. Oh good, the name of the actual owner of the box, email and phone number is in the box, we can give a tinkle to ask her to come and collect it (its a her because the parcel is from Victoria Secret if you know what I mean). It is actually for the former tenant of my place.

So I gave her a call. Didn’t pick up. Thinking how can a person be so blur for not changing the delivery address. I mean when you place your order surely this question will pop up right? What a blur queen.

Anyway sent an email to her to ask her to collect it. She reply the email with no hint of appreciation. Not even a sense of warmness. No thank you, no ‘I was relieved that you contacted me’. Just apologies for the inconvenience caused.

Hey, I am not asking for anything in return but a thank you would be nice. I feel a bit regret contacting her and too bad her bra is too small for my size. Not that I fancy her ‘boring’ style. Yawn.

Anyway, she contacted CY like immediately (I left CY number in the email as I will be at work most of the time) to collect it tomorrow. Fine by us.

She came, CY apologised for opening the box, she said its ok and thanks and bye.

-.-

Really, we are not asking for door gifts or anything as such. Common, we took the effort to contact her even though we could have ignored it??? To think that we both stayed (I am still) at the same place, I thought we could have more things to talk about. I should have been a bitch and sell her small size bras and underwears on ebay. Its Victoria Secret you know?!?! CY said for a China Chinese lady to be able to afford bra modelled by Miranda Kerr is really something, rich for instant. Of course she is rich, her parents just bought her an apartment.

I feel bitter about this I tell you.

Death puts an end in life

Words could not replace any lost of feelings or any lost of good friend that you always thought good of. You don’t question the mortality of anyone until you are at that edge where you will have to think about it. I refuse to believe in it even though the situation is or was really grim. Nevertheless, I also believe that we must have faith in God. In prayers I try, but the heart keeps telling me that this prayer will be answered differently.

I am a believer in death cause there is no running away from it. It is good to be dead because no longer I have to suffer or be a strong human being to go through endless of challenges and turmoils. Death is peace. Then again, death is not welcome when you are halfway through your live. Death is not supposed to happen when you are happy with someone you love. Death among all separates people. People that love one another.

The wife and the husband are one happy couple. A couple where you would look at and think that they will be as loving even when they are old and grey. That is one the best couples I have seen so far. The wife is as equally merry as the husband, no doubt match made in heaven. I envy their love and happiness. Then, all good things must end, nothing is permanent.

Joo Hwa, my sweet friend, whom I believe has gone to heaven today, this morning, when the sky was blue. Whom I think deserve to have more years beside his beloved husband left all of us behind today. She no longer needs to struggle, that’s a good thing right? She no longer needs to go through pain, that’s a good thing right? If its a good thing, then why does her absent makes a hole in the heart of those whom came to know and love her? Is love selfish? Is letting go selfish? I really don’t know now.

Rest in Peace love.

Satisfactory

It wasn’t  as scary as I thought it would be. I kind of enjoyed it. Of course the thought of passing and failing do at some certain point shake me to my core but it was in just in that one moment (15mins to be exact) other than that it was nice.

It is nice to have people with expertise to talk only about MY research and opening my mind to things that I didn’t think of. I had this feeling earlier on before the review, where I feel like I am becoming so small in front of these giants that I will just disappear but its nice to know that I have overcome that feelings of insignificant. I am surprised that I am eager to answer some questions. Well, that is something new. The readings must have helped a lot and also thanks to one particular great teacher. :-D

It is good to know that I passed with such an open ended proposal (is it good? hmmm). Guess I won’t be returning home soon (figure of speech, I am coming home in Feb ok for the field work).

However, I am  more stress than ever. Like really really stress. Like can I manage the expectations set??? A bit overwhelming. Well life goes on. Whether I like it or not, I still have to carry on. What am I talking about! I like it!!! But is it enough? Reminds me of Captain. He told me to do PhD, sometimes passion is not enough. I totally understand that right now. I have passion, but is it enough?

Can I have some blood please?

I no longer can drink a lot. I just had two sparkling white wine and I am as happpy as as… what?? I don’t know how I should put it. Had a really nice meet up with my ex housemate, didn’t want to end the meeting but she has got prior engagement but I will meet her soon enough.

I just finished reading Bram Stoker, Dracula, and I am loving it to bits!!! I couldn’t put the book down and that book was written in 18 something!!! BRILLIANT I TELL YOU! SO original and yet so nerve wrecking! The vampire stories to date haven’t changed so much haven’t they?!?!?? Like the stories are still so infantile as compared to the Dracula! Like they really should write something new. Nothing can beat the original Dracula and Van Helsing. Why can’t I stop thinking about Hugh Jackman when I think about Van Helsing. Haha. Must be that movie. I really really love that book about Dracula.

Actually the reason I am blogging now is because I hate it when a story has to come to and end!! Its like when you are so acquainted with everybody else and you have to go through all the dramas and then it ends. I don’t want to say goodbye!!! Maybe there is a reason why I hate sad ending story too.

Oh, I picked up ‘to kill a mockingbird’ too! Its another book that I will make sure my kid or kids will read other than secret garden. I feel like I am relieving my childhood in another era. Its really deserving of its Pulitzer award. Atticus is the best father anyone can get. Super dooper love!!!

Anyway, I am going to sign off now and watch Robots. The rehearsal for the presentation was one word but disastrous.

And and and I LOVE zombies movies!!!! woohoo!!!

Pet Diaries: Dog vs. Cat

The Dog's Diary:

8:00 am - Dog food! My favourite thing!

9:30 am - A car ride! My favourite thing!

9:40 am - A walk in the park! My favourite thing!

10:30 am - Got rubbed and petted! My favourite thing!

12:00 pm - Milk bones! My favourite thing!

1:00 pm - Played in the yard! My favourite thing!

3:00 pm - Wagged my tail! My favourite thing!

5:00 pm - Dinner! My favourite thing!

7:00 pm - Got to play ball! My favourite thing!

8:00 pm - Wow! Watched TV with the people! My favourite thing!

11:00 pm - Sleeping on the bed! My favourite thing!

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The Cat's Diary:

Day 983 of my captivity.

My captors continue to taunt me with bizarre little dangling objects. They dine lavishly on fresh meat, while the other inmates and I are fed some sort of dry nuggets. Although I make my contempt for the rations perfectly clear, I nevertheless must eat something in order to keep up my strength. The only thing that keeps me going is my dream of escape. In an attempt to disgust them, I once again vomit on the carpet. Today I decapitated a mouse and dropped its headless body at their feet. I had hoped this would strike fear into their hearts, since it clearly demonstrates my capabilities. However, they merely made condescending comments about what a "good little hunter" I am. Jerks!

There was some sort of assembly of their accomplices tonight. I was placed in solitary confinement for the duration of the event. However, I could hear the noises and smell the food. I overheard that my confinement was due to the power of "allergies." I must learn what this means, and how to use it to my advantage. Today I was almost successful in an attempt to assassinate one of my tormentors by weaving around his feet as he was walking. I must try this again tomorrow, but at the top of the stairs.

I am convinced that the other prisoners here are flunkies and snitches. The dog receives special privileges. He is regularly released, and seems to be more than willing to return. He is obviously retarded. The bird must be an informant. I observe him communicate with the guards regularly. I am certain that he reports my every move. My captors have arranged protective custody for him in an elevated cell, so he is safe. For now.

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Ain’t this funny. LOLx!

Some joke which I found here.

Next stop!

Next week!!

This time both of us are going!!! I’ma going broke! $161 for both tickets. I think it is ok if I don’t convert. Well. I am excited.

Cunning angel

What would you do if you were still attending a customer and another colleague (other brand) barge into your space and started selling things for his own pride? You will be pissed and told the person off right?

I didn't say anything at all although I was unhappy (not angry). The whole time he was talking to the customer, I was watching him and thinking what the hell is he doing. I was observing him and thinking, 'so this is how low he can get'. He was my counter manager's good friend and he has always been nice to me and suddenly all of a sudden, he crossed his comfort zone to enter my zone just to get that extra credit card sales the store has been pressuring us to do. All because he wanted to reach his 10 cards target for that night (I overheard him boasting to another beauty assistant).

I was thinking really hard about it, should I say anything because he is the best friend of my manager and he has always been nice. I know its going to turn ugly if I confront him in front of my customer. That's why I kept quiet but I was struggling and how am I going to face him next time, cause he is just next door! Do I want to make a big deal out of this?

I swallowed whatever pride I had and I told myself. Alright, do I want to be angry at this? Can I act differently this time? Do I want to remember how ugly can a person turn to when they are selfish? Do I want to bicker about this? No. I don't want to carry this nonsense with me to bed. I will forget about it because with that I don't have to struggle to forgive him. If he is human, he would have some guilty consious smothering him soon enough.

So he is human, because the next day he WAS extra nice (all guilt written all over his forehead). I gave him my 'biggest smile' of course, the one that looked like this -->    :-D (to make him feel worst). He told my manager what he did and my manager told him off, told him he was a bastard. I thought that was funny. You know what I like about this whole situation? Him feeling guilty. If I were to confront him, I am 100% sure I will feel like shit at night and I wouldn't be able to face him openly. So I rather him be in the difficult situation and I angel. Muahahahahahaah.

Cunning isn't it? He can keep whatever pride he has with the sales and guess who sleeps better at night? I wonder if I will react the same next time.

Not another diet!

Did I mention that I am on a diet? I was trying on a crop top jacket and to my horror all I can see is my protruding stomach and my over eager butt. Actually I am aware that I have been pretty round recently but I guess  I need the right moment, that moment of truth.

So I tried one of the detox tea but hate their after effect, especially when you wake up the next morning. Then after a while this tea will lose its effect cause what else can it detoxes after all the detox right?

So I opt out of that one. I try meal replacement instead. Although don’t really fancy the taste of the meal replacement (they have caramel, latte, banana shake, double chocolate etc) but heck they are actually working. I started on Thursday and I can feel the differences already. They don’t have the after effect of the detox tea which makes you wanna kill yourself in the morning for ever taking the tea.

The meal replacement is about 200 cal per pack (it claims to have all the nutrients I need) and it costs about $3 - $4 per pack. I often take it together with fruits. However it is still a liquid form of meal replacement, so I still do get hungry after 2 – 3 hours. Actually, even if I take normal meal I also get hungry after 2 – 3 hours. So instead of binge eating, I choose to eat water cracker. I avoid rice, noodles at all cost, although water cracker is still sort of starch but it is at its lowest.

I think with what ever diet, I got to have the will to stop giving in to food I am craving for. I have the worst cravings, chocolates, chips, fries. So the first 2 days was kind of hard resisting these food. CY so baka, some more enticed me to eat McD and ice cream! Scolded him until upside down. Haha. Poor dear.

Anyway, I will continue for two weeks and see how it goes. Crossy fingers!!

Photos – oh so random!

sunsets @ my place


Purple tree @ my Uni, would like to grow stretches of them in the future outside my big mansion. ahem.

Little cafe by Bondi Junction. 

Food fair. I think this is  Night Noodle Markets. Visit here: http://www.siff.com.au/




Roaming the city cause didn’t want to go back early.

Our little studio apartment. $300 a week, guess how much I am paying a month in RM. ;-)
Someone’s a month salary.

@ Hyde’s Park for Crave’s Art and About. Visit here: http://www.cravesydney.com/events/art-about
I have to admit that one thing I like about Sydney is their no end of events. There is always something to do, to see and well, to eat.
Best is, the location and its well organized.

An outdoor art exhibition. Isn’t that awesome?



 
I look stupid here. –_- I hate you CY.


Street art performer. Can be quite fun.

With my favourite tree.

Where is thou head?


Went to roam in China town and got myself a Kat. That’s her name.

Kat with Kat but in black that is in white.

Another day to visit the design market. This is a must visit for CY but too bad it ended early due to the rain. Visit here: http://www.pyd.com.au/Events/article/2117.aspx
Before that, bus stop usually waited at. Yea. That’s IGA. The place we shop when we are bored.

 


This has a Japanese feel to it, don’t you think?

The design market. So many things I wanted to buy!!!

The shirt cost me $2 and the short pants cost me $6. Not from the design market. This is purely random.

 
Next, Sculpture by the Sea. Which we went successfully yesterday. We failed first time cause it was too darn hot. 37cel!
I love this event cause the location is perfect! Visit here: http://sculptureinternational.com/html/sxsbondi.php

Not part of the exhibit. Demo we still daitsuki!

Obviously this is not a sculpt. Just the street art by Bondi.

One of my fav!


This is fun too!
















Alright, that’s it for now.
Next perhaps I’ll take a photo of David Jones Christmas display. IT ROCKS!!!!
Ja neh.

idling train

I am allowing myself to be empty this few days. Just practically doing nothing, you know, cause I want to ready my mind, I know I will be pretty busy until next year end January.

Need to work hard for Christmas and also to prepare for my field work. Gotta settle the work journals and interviews before January ends. That has been on the back of my mind for months and I know I got to do what I got to do.

A year is almost gone, and I am up for my review on the 24th. Yes, I need to prepare for the presentation and also be prepared for the questions they are going to pop. I am glad that my sup push me to submit earlier the proposal, which I submitted last Weds, 6 days before the due date (kinda proud of that). but seriously, my heart can no longer take last minute preparation, body as well. I've hung the coat of midnight oil burning baby.

Idling idling idling.

I know, I shall post up some photos next. Taken so much of them but didn't have the time to post it up. Most of it, I uploaded in facebook. Its some sort like a photoblogs for me in there.

Oh, and have to apologize for the sequence of sentences. In here, I just type with the train of thoughts without much thought given to the train. Enough of editing in real work.