an end?

Totally agree with yaoung-i, about writing in English.

My English is really rubbish. Got some feedback from the assignments I submitted. One main big issue was ‘English’. Though my supervisor never said anything yet but I think soon he will be frustrated.

Seriously, I am master of none in all the languages I know! My Malay sucks, my Chinese WAY suckering and my state of English is worst than high school or worst, lower. I think the only language I truly master at is Hokkien, and that’s not even a language, its a dialect. I really want to improve on it but the grammar thingy is like SO hard to make sense of! It never register in my head. the pre post tenses. I feel clenchy just thinking of it.

Anyway, in class today I learnt, a means to an end, it never ends in good. Ha! I like it. The readings given since the beginning of the semester were really extensive. I get headaches trying to understand them, all of them! But it clears up (almost) after the lecture. It never cross my mind that such deep theories can do much healing to the self. The conveyors did a great job.  How I wish some of my friends can attend this course. So much to learn. I feel that to truly learn something, you need to learn from within. Especially when you are talking about society that are filled with so much emotions. It’s hard to find a course where every week, you are requested to reflect deep into your soul even if its an academic course.

The way they learn thing here is different. I like the flow of dialogues (though I rarely participate). In Uni, my time as I remember it, I was shy to voice out. The lecturers did ask questions and we have some good students that were brave enough to answer it. Here somewhat is different. Its more like a dialogue than a question to be answered. I don’t know why I was shy to voice out, cultural thingy? It was not my way to speak out in public or maybe my opinion was not needed when I was growing up. So that became a habit. By having a conversation with the lecturers, the students found so much answers that they weren’t clear about. We didn’t get the answers just like that, it involves plenty of reflection. Too bad today is the last day of the course.

Anyway, tell me, why is it a ‘taboo’ to write about emotions and feelings In academic writing (from Social sciences perspective)? Why? We are trying to study a society with people inside it that have emotions and yet we are not supposed to write like that? How are we going to address the issue? The researcher must remain unemotional and like a third person, unattached. Its something that I have been wondering about for sometime. Everyone writes differently, then how come when I read the journals, is like the same lingo? More professional izzit? More reliable? I thought the most important thing is the process of findings? No?

Something new I learnt from my supervisor, broken relationship. That’s what we study. Broken relationship. I like it! Instead of studying a group of people with this and that issue bla bla bla, we study broken relationship. Think about it! I think its so cool! Make sense of the whole purpose.

I’ve been pretty random today. Anyway, gonna scoot. Ciao!