A little crazy

I am still tired. The lack of sleep from one night (JUST ONE NIGHT last week) and a continuity of work non stop has taken a toll on me. I’m practically dragging myself out of bed everyday.

I know I am tired not because I think I’ve worked days in a roll, but because I am beginning to twitch around my eyes and my speech is stuttered. I think my body wants to rest and shut down but my mind is against it. Another interesting fact about me being tired and definitely getting stress is I am becoming a cry baby, well I normally do cry easily but this is silly. I can’t even continue to blog properly.

I managed to squeeze some time to read book other than theories’. Between bus ride, lunch break and bus ride. I just got it yesterday and I finished it when I got home today. The only time I can read so fast and intense is when the book is reaching out to me. I feel like my energy has been recharged.

The book, ‘Veronika decides to die’ by my favourite author is about a girl that has no reason to kill herself but still did so, about mad people’s world which always fascinate me (The Soloist is about mentally ill people too). These books make me understand them more, makes me want to be a bit crazy myself too. Story is still around the theme of being you, doing what makes you happy, and this sometimes mean you have to go crazy. Thus, madhouse is a perfect place for you to do what you want and people wont judge you for it. Anyway, above all, this book is about dying and by realizing that you don’t have much time left, then only you will start living. Not much people realize that they are dying so they waste all their precious life away. Sad.

Beethoven, Van Gogh, Einstein was a little mad too but they were all genius in their own ways. Crazy and genius, how irony.

I told you I am stuttering. I am having difficulties forming sentences right now.

Right, back to literature review. My sup told me I had to cut my previously written review down by half. I feel like hanging myself. Maybe that’s why I am twitching. Hehehehe.

Later.