Lucid dreams

I woke up and went to  the bathroom. I wonder how is it that my bathroom is bigger? While I am sitting on the bowl I stare at the window. I wonder, since when I put up curtains in the bathroom and it’s blood red colour. The window is open and the sky is grey and gloomy, exactly like the sky last night. Then suddenly CY burst into the bathroom. He wanted to take some of the toilet bowl I asked of him to pass me some of the paper and he just smile and smile without saying anything. Then I realised heck, this is not real IT IS A DREAM I’M HAVING. I was so nervous that I won’t be able to wake, like ever and I keep telling myself, ‘Tera, WAKE UP WAKE UP’. I even ‘went’ to the end of the bed to wake CY that was sleeping, to ask him to wake me up. I remember I was struggling to wake up with my eyes half open and half shut. Woke up feeling very out of this world. You ever dream about you were dreaming? Also it could be due to the fact that I clumsily banged on the wall like really hard the night before. CY was laughing his arse off. I was worried that I will die of blood clog, drama I know.

Anyway, that was yesterday.

Today, CY had an interesting dream (must be my influence). He dreamt that I cheated money from the mafias and I distributed the money to the ‘people’ and we had to run and hide in the village because I conned the mafias money. Awwww… CY you are so sweet. Seems like I am the heroin in your dream (Robin Hoodess). Heheheheh.

I had plenty of lucid dreams which I have forgotten. Mostly I feel that I am in the real world but then I always realise that I am in the dream world. I wonder if there is any meaning in this. I do believe that dream is part of our subconscious mind that is trying to tell us something.

Something else that is totally random. Someone told me that she would like to return to 21 (She’s about 45) because she wants to begin living differently. I was like har? NO WAY. I wouldn’t want to go back and start all over in my education, relearn life’s lessons, go through hell in my previous work, AGAIN and etc. What a struggle! I can’t wait to finish this life. Like, I know I sound so suicidal but its not that. I think one life time is enough. What do you guys think? I really want to know.

Anyway, gtg, CY is chasing me to get out of my comfort seat so that we could go out and feed the stray cats.

Bye bye.