Syok sendiri

I think I have some issue with myself. I finally managed to sit down and pen down type something up for few hours and yet I still think it is not enough. I am far beyond boasting here, I really feel incomplete, like something is still missing. Need to reset my perspective right I suppose.

My review is coming up end Nov. I am excited since I found out, and today I am beginning to feel anxious, guess stress will come like real soon. So we’ll see what other emotion is on the way.

Was telling CY if I GAGAL (fail) this review, it means bye bye Sydney d. No lah, where got that serious. They still give chance one, they will request you to do another review if seriously cannot do it then really have to bye bye d. My sup will most prob kill me if I do that. So cannot happen lah <crossing fingers>!!

And just to comfort myself here. I never did any research/thesis work in my degree year. It was all essays writing, I feel a bit er…out? when I was doing my master? Struggled a bit, Prof Rokiah was VERY patient with me. My master was the first time I ever did a full skill thesis writing and yet that is only considered a project paper. So yea, I think I am doing ok but man, it is still a LONG way to go.

Um…today I feel like saying thank you to our government, (no sarcasm here) especially to our Ministry of Higher Education and USM for being kind to me. Without their $ support and a chance I wont be learning things that I’m loving. I am really grateful. I am thinking about the interviewer who was really a cool dude and my captain that has never doubted me.

And of course God is the most ultimate one. He just knows.

How come I feel like I am writing a speech for acceptance of some sort of award one.

Syok sendiri. Cheh.

:-D